Bicara Hati

Kita tahu bahawa hidup itu tidak selamanya indah.. ada kalanya kita akan ditimpa dugaan, mahupun kegembiraan.. kita tahu bahawa, kita tidak mampu untuk menafikan segalanya kerana segala yang berlaku adalah atas perancangan Maha Pencipta.. Tahun berganti tahun, kini admin sudah berada di Tahun 4 pengajian di IPG Kampus Keningau ini.. Bermakna, admin bakal menamatkan pengajian pada hujung tahun depan sekiranya diizinkan Tuhan..

    Cabaran hidup juga kian memuncak.. sesungguhnya diri ini bukanlah insan yang cukup kuat untuk menghadapi segalanya.. ada kalanya, kekuatan yang ada rapuh & hilang dihempas badai yang melanda diri.. hidup berjauhan dari keluarga membuatkan diri ini kadang kala terlalu kerdil untuk terus berpijak di bumi Tuhan ini... bukan mengadu untuk meminta simpati tapi titipan ini hanyalah luahan hati seorang hamba Tuhan...

    Tiada manusia yang sempurna kerana masing-masing punya kelebihan dan kekurangan diri.. namun begitu, kita perlu bijak untuk menggunakan kelebihan yang ada untuk dimanfaatkan kepada orang di sekeliling kita dan bukannya menggunakan kelebihan tersebut untuk menjatuhkan orang lain.. Inilah yang dirasakan oleh hati kecil ini.. Kadang-kadang, admin tidak mampu untuk meletakkan kepercayaan kepada sesiapa pn.. kenapa?? hanya satu saja, cukuplah sekali orang yang admin percaya menikam diri ini dari belakang... kejam!! itulah ungkapan yang admin mampu katakan..

    Admin tidak berniat untuk melibatkan sesiapa.. jika sekiranya ada pembaca yang berkecil hati, admin minta maaf ya.. admin tidak memaksudkan "anda" di sini.. ini hanyalah sebahagian daripada kisah hidup admin.. sewaktu sama2 berjuang untuk mendapat kejayaan bersama, masih ada lagi pihak yang memanipulasi sokongan daripada orang lain untuk menjatuhkan insan yang tidak disukai @ pesaing yang dianggapnya musuh.. kenapa harus wujud fikiran seperti itu?? bukankah semua orang mempunyai matlamat yang sama, iaitu untuk tamat pengajian dengan jayanya... barulah admin sedar, beginilah kisah benar yang berlaku dalam hidup manusia sehari2.. manusia saling mempergunakan untuk berjaya.. manusia yang lemah akan terus dibiarkan lemah hingga akhirnya berputus asa.. namun, admin takkan pernah jadi begitu... biarlah mereka meneruskan niat untuk terus menjatuhkan admin, tetapi admin akan tetap dgn pendirian iaitu "buat tidak tahu" kerana admin percaya sekiranya mereka tidak mendapat respon daripada admin, suatu ketika nanti mereka akan bosan dan menerima pengajaran yang setimpal dengan apa yang telah dilakukan..

    Pesanan buat rakan-rakan pembaca, sebaik-baiknya janganlah biarkan diri anda ditindas oleh orang yang anda percayai... berwaspadalah dalam memilih kawan..

Aku dan Sukan

Since admin jadi student IPG ne, admin mula berminat dalam sukan.. xtaw la knapa...admin mula addict ngan game volleyball & netball.. baru2 ne admin ikut handball.. hehehe.. lama da x main, level stamina pun abt 10%... sykur ada kakak2 GSTT yg bagi guide kt admin.. hehehe... at least dpt jg no 3.. hehehe.. tp, sukan ne sememangnya baik utk kshtan.. rugi klo ada sapa2 yg x minat sukan taw... bkan je sukan ne tingkatkn stamina, otak pn jd aktif taw... btul ne...

 Walaupun ujan, x halang smgt admin nak men.. hehe.. srnok (tp skg da dmam)... its owkey :)

My First Sunday Class

Last Sunday (16.09.2012) was my first class at the St Francis Xavier Cathedral.. that night before i was staying alone.. i was thinking about if im able to wake up early in the morning... actually, its not impossible to do so when i wake up earlier than usual that sunday morning... yesss... i did it ^^

     i go shower than got my breakfast.. i just made a sandwich (bread + jam) and a cup of coffee.. yummm.. well, its important for me because my class will be start at 7.30 pm until 9.15..then, i continued with Mass at 9.30 untill 11 am.. that day, i wore my white blouse with pink skirts and my favourite purple shoes ^^..  unfortunately, im bery hungry that moment, no matter somehow i'm just ok... hehehe...

     After the mass, we ran over the reataurant to have lunch with my beloved uncle, Thonlief ^_^.. its been a long time since we dont have lunch together.. quite missing him.. huhu.. he's my super senior this year and this is the last year he'd be here.. after this, he'll b post somewhere... its mean, i'll travel alone start next year :(

   Lets get back to the story about my sunday class.. that morning, our teacher is Mr Eric a.ka. Carles Eric George... he's kind of sweet guy, polite and a good teacher.. hehehe.. i like the way he take over our class.. our topic that day was about the differences and similarities between Chatolic and non Catholic Christians.. i learn a lot that day even ive left behind about 22 topics... so far, im very hapyy because they still give me the chance to join the class even its almost over.. but, i'll start over next year with the next book that is Book 10.. hopefully, GOD will give me the chance to continue what i've been start.. amen...

   For the readers outside, whoever you are.. whatever we've start over, as long as we have the chance to go through it, then just go... you know why, not everybody will have the chance to have tomorrow even some of us always said that tomorrow never die.. trust me, it;s just make us become more irresponsibility to the things that we must do.. lets get a good start and get it to the end :)

Where's the Humanity Value??

Just now, i went out to the town just now about 1 hour.. actually, im not really think about going out.. im just felt so bored, stayed in the room alone because my roomate went to KK this morning.. huhuhu... i went about 4 pm, alone.. hehehe... thats me.. i prefer walk alone than asked somebody to accompany me..  

   I went to the supermarket to buy some stuff.. i bought a bunch of bread and a milk for my breakfast tomorrow.. the moment i stand at the counter to pay my things, i saw a women and her daughter yelled at their maid in front of others... im little bit shocked about it because the women was next to me.. i felt very sad for her action.. i was thinking about, where's the humanity values in her?? i dont think i was wrong if i said that her action was kind of stupid and inhuman.. i was hoping that one day, they'll change.. the maid dont deserve such treat from them.. 

 

   On the way back to the hostel, i thought so much about the humanity values among us this moment.. the earth getting older, the civilization getting higher but the same time human become inhuman.. what does it refer to?? there seems to be lack of respect among each other.. the new generation have a great education but most of them dont appreciate the chance they have.. hopefully, this wont be lead to a great disaster after this.. together, lets change & live a better life :) peace!!

Self Reflection

      The time went very fast every day.. as soon as i wake up early in the morning, i realize that its the beginning of a new day.. yesss.. that is how our life.. every one of us was given 24 hours in a day.. it should be more than enough for us to settle down most of the things that we should do.. but, the thing seems to be unexpectabled.. most of us always complained that we don't have enough time to do everything.. but, the real thing that happen is we are wasting the time too much on something useless.. for an example, during the work time, we always on the phone, or else text and even online... hrmmm.. does it seem to be awful?? or should i say that we don't know how to appreciate the time...

     Even me myself just the same like most of us outside.. always doing the assignment on the last minute... its not sometimes but always... when i think twice, it should be done earlier if i use the time by the right way.. actually i have do much free time, especially during the noon.. but, i waste it by watching movies, playing games or sleeping for 3-4 hours :(.. think back about it, its such a waste when during that time i can finish some of the works.. u might also do, right??

    Unnoticed, now im in the 3rd year for Bachelor Degrees in Education at Keningau Teacher Education Institute.. this course took about 5 and a half years for the Bachelor programme.. quite a long time for me.. when i looked back to my pass, i was here since i was 18 (2009).. that moment, im just nobody and just an ordinary school leavers.. its a great opportunity when i was given the chance to continue studies at that age.. that's the moment when everything starts until this moment..

    The flight takes about a quarter hour from Kuching to Kota Kinabalu... that time, i was going alone without my parents.. they want to teach me how to independent.. as a Sarawakian, i dont know so much about Sabah that time even i've been there for few times.. my brother wait for me at the Kota Kinabalu International Airport as soon as i arrived there.. im glad that even my parents cant accompany me, but i still have a brother to be with...

    Right now, i can travel alone :) and my parents very happy about it.. life as a trainee teacher changed me a lot.. change me from the outside until the real me inside... its a great moment when i was given the chance to teach the students.. they reminds me about my childhood memories which is full of happiness.. but now, i;ll become and adult soon.. the only thing that i ask everytime i pray is, God give me chance to continue the fight of my life the way i should do..